Tuesday, 13 September 2011

i hate you but i love you MORE and MORE!!!


I hate you for giving me hope in life when all there is, is despair.
I hate you for giving me this strife and making the world seem so unfair.
I hate you for ever wanting me and letting me know such happiness.
I hate you for just leaving me to feel the worst loneliness.
I hate you for telling me lies when I believed all that you said.
I hate you for letting me die as I lay helpless in my bed.
I hate you for holding my hand when it swung content by my side.
I hate you for existing in this land where we must coincide.
I hate you for smiling on a dreary day when my frown is seen through the haze.
I hate you for letting come what may when you could’ve stopped it in so many ways.
I hate you for saying you loved me when I asked you not to say it back.
I hate you for letting me see our relationship crack.
I hate you for not letting me hear the cruel things you say when I’m not there.
I hate you for not letting me near when my soul I need to bare.
I hate you for giving me a glance when I think I look beautiful.
I hate you for the second chance that left me incredibly hopeful.
I hate you for not hearing me out when I want to beg and plead.
I hate you for making me doubt my opinion, to which I pay heed.
I hate you for all the things you said that made me most content.
I hate you for turning my head because I still think you’re a god-send.
I hate you for this excrutiating pain I barely endure every night.
I hate you for the constant rain my soul must fight.
I hate you for being there so now I’m doomed to miss and remember.
I hate you for giving me reason to care what happened back in JUNE.
I hate you for saying goodbye and leaving me not knowing what to do,
But most of all,
I hate you for letting me cry ’cause I can’t have you.